Tuesday, December 15, 2009
I am a glass half full person, most of the time. And I will keep writing, no matter if I encounter a bunch of vampire-y "I don't like the story this way" types. I do want feedback, and some of what I've gotten so far has been awesome. But I can't/won't write the story that someone else wants, that someone else would write. It is MY story, and succeed or fail, I have to write the one I have here. It's not someone else's way of doing it.
I feel so different here than I did when writing my dissertation. All of that was wrestling with the theory gods, sitting down daily to be smart. This story is here in my core, I feel it there, and right now, I even know which character wants to talk. It's her turn, and I know, sort of, where she's going.
It's kind of weird, but I like it. Just gotta stay away from the Black Holes of creativity in our lives, even if we want them to suddenly turn in to supportive perfect writing partners; it's obviously not going to happen, so get over it, right?